white!

i fell in love.
i fell out of love.
he still loves me.
i fell in love.
he didn't love me.
i fell in love again.
he loves me.

home right now is beautiful. humboldt, ca. full of green forests and grey beaches. it will pain me to move to the exact opposite of this place in july to los angeles, ca. where i'll begin my second year for fashion design. i have my first job and it's designing and creating bridesmaid dresses for megan's wedding. my childhood best friend.

i want to write but i keep deleting it all.

its talent! its permission to let me pour the things i'd like to glaze the world with! even its smell! deviantart does smell! like grass and plastic. it's beautiful. the zombie returns and has grown so much, only natural, no? tell me what has changed with you deviants! what is new in your life! what has stayed strong? what has made you happiest? expect muchly from me this week. love, me!

i have four more weeks of school left, once they are over i will make the most amazing letters i have ever made because i am friendless and will have a lot a lot of time. if you address has changed (even those i haven't sent a letter to, yet) please notify.

sincerely,
a very busy me.

so i'm training to be a runway/editorial photography model, ayayi. this was my dream for when i was 8-15 years old. so it sort of is just coming back to me. i'm going to try my hardest because this would be a great start for me. good knowledge to know in the fashion design industry and would be good money to pay back loans/start my own business.

countdowns:

4 days until my birthday party
5 more days for graduation
11 days for recital
16 days until i turn 18
19 days until i get my braces off
20 days until i head for canada
22 days until i see leonard cohen
25 days until my first photo shoot
32 days until i leave for san diego
35 days until i start attending fidm
48 days until i see feist
49 days until i go to comic-con

things i want to finish/begin before the end of the year:
scrapbooks
book of writing
online clothing site
letters